It’s mid January as I pen my first entry of the year on my most followed site.
I have mixed feelings about the writing I have been doing in the last few years. I go from defending my talents and my right to call myself a writer to admitting that my writing in my life has never brought me a single penny. A few weeks ago I was a bit startled by my husband’s declaration that “nobody is arguing that you are a writer”. I had not realized how often I share my doubts. My ambition is not money though. My ambition is very simple: I would like to see my name on the spine of a book in my bookcase. I can pay to have a book published my husband reminded me and I was quickly subdued! I have hundreds of Sunday newsletters that I feel are worthy of editing for minor mistakes and publishing. Why haven’t I done it?
My communications skills (verbal and written) have been present since I can remember. I do not consider myself shy or reserved. In fact quite the opposite although I will admit I am a conservative person who prefers to observe rather than be out there directing. On the other hand, if I have to be out there directing because people are just standing around idly wasting time or uncertain about the next step, I take my mother’s prerogative that it is better to do something even if one makes a mistake than to stand around doing nothing. But I digress, uncertain where that will lead. So back to my focus, writing!
This morning I received an email from a writer I had subscribed to on Medium. Since he was also writing for Substack, I guess I ended up on his email list. When I quit my “freelance” adventure on Medium, I lost the “right” to read any writer beyond a certain point, stopped by that incessant paywall I refuse to honor. I know paid content is the thing these days but it is not my thing. I have to be careful how I spend the discretionary monthly budget I allow for frivolities from my small social security check. It was a surprise to me to see an email from him so I was incentivized to read it. He was tweaking his settings he explained. There were people on his list who had unsubscribed to his newsletter and he apologized and asked us to unsubscribe again so he could get a handle on what’s what. I decided I would read his newsletter before taking that action.
It was a serendipitous event. In his post he reminds me of why I write in the first place: I have something to say that only I can say the way I want to. Somehow I took away from that that our writing has to be from the heart, not some cloned copy of writing we think is what the public will respond and pay for. He also shares the title of a book he considers his favorite of the last decade (!) and I went over to my digital library to see if they had it for me to borrow and they did. I was fully prepared to pay for it, that’s how much respect I have for this man’s recommendations, but in the end there it was, free to borrow and in stock.
I began reading the first page…astonished about what other people can do with words and wondering how many stabs it took before every word that fought for its very life made it into the sentence. Wow! Some people can really write complex long sentences that are clearly understood from the beginning to the period no matter how many words they contain. That is my goal, to be a clear communicator, a good storyteller, to capture my audience. I am so glad that I read from beginning to end.
My writing has to improve in 2024 as a simple acknowledgment that things improve with practice. My aim is to entertain and inform…and to enjoy the process. Here’s to me and here’s to you. Happy 2024!