2020 has been an unusual year. Many of us have become sick, have lost loved ones, have been unable to travel, and have lost our income. We have had an autocratic leader for 4 years and the problems in the U.S. cannot be laid entirely at his feet, but the heartless behavior of some of our political representatives is in many ways a product of the example placed before them by him.
I have not travelled to the U.S. this year, something I usually do twice. I go to see my children and the friends I left behind and to stock up on goodies I am not able to get in Costa Rica. The highlight of my trips was getting to see all the marvelous modern developments and changes that happened since the last time I was there. Something was always happening: new flavors of coffee, new ways to pay for things, new ways to shop…this year, everything became dismal for us all.
Many years ago, I worked pro-bono with an important local association. The president of the association had been in the group for a while and enjoyed a privileged position as a respected member of the community because her family had long settled in the small town. As a newcomer and hoping to make a mark in my new residence, I was too quick and eager to accept a position on the board of directors before I knew exactly what it entailed. The telling of that story would take too long for this blog so I will just summarize the important contradictions that led me to rethink my own involvement in what seemed to be an honest and worthy cause.
The association had four pillars: promoting tourism in the area, facilitating education for the local population, bringing back beloved traditions and increasing the quality of life for all. I agreed with all those pillars. I was very committed to doing my part to make a difference. The problem was that our leader had her own ideas about how to achieve our goals, focusing on tactics that did not encourage anyone to approach us, let alone volunteer! She demanded absolute loyalty from the rest of the board. Her ideas, her words, her procedure all had to be supported or we found ourselves on the outs. I deferred to her strong will for almost 6 years before it began to dawn on me that I was a pawn in her game. It felt terrible.
When I started speaking out, I found myself on the receiving end of a very vindictive and poisonous person. She conducted a character assassination campaign that would have succeeded where it not for the fact that I had already made many friends who knew the real me. Eventually, the group became to small for the two of us and I decided to quit. She decided to quit also and hired a lawyer to draw up a horrible letter detailing her complaints against me which she distributed to prominent members of the local and regional community. Needless to say, I was humiliated. I was brought up to accept the consequences of my actions so I expected that my challenges would result in push back. I continued my work and my life and instead of retiring from the community, I kept participating as I could.
I think about this today as millions of Americans suffer the consequences of no one standing up to an authoritarian leader who believed beyond any doubt that he deserved and would get a second term. The GOP had no idea just how far he would go or to what degree he would expect their blind loyalty. All of us are suffering for this behavior. Early this morning, a car bomb exploded in Nashville. Our leader is golfing and while he has been briefed, he did not stop his play to address the nation. I don’t know why I am surprised but there we are. We are all exhausted and desperately hoping for a better 2021.
Merry Christmas.