I am not alone in feeling confused. How is it possible that almost two years of our existence have been lost to Covid? It really does make me wonder how much of life has been disrupted for young people who were essentially about to embark on the discovery of who they were? I return in my mind to the days when I was a high school graduate. That was an unusual year. The Nixon scandal was unravelling and I skipped school in order to watch the proceedings on television. I missed so many days the nuns warned me I was in peril of not graduating. When I heard that, I panicked and decided to attend all my classes. Imagine if my parents had found out I was skipping school to watch Maureen Dean sitting stoically behind her husband as he testified? I don’t want to image that!
Life was very different back then. We had adults telling us what to do all the time. We more or less took it to heart and were pretty good followers of rules, at least I was. Today’s young people (rightly or not) are cut from a different cloth. They have experienced so much in their lives, growing up too quickly but not maturing properly in my opinion. The mediocrity of our society is not their fault but they are inheriting it and in their rage are not really helping to make things better, just kind of delaying the inevitable.
I am feeling very untethered and unsettled these days. The last couple of months have seen me taking care of my daughter’s cat and as a consequence of having a schedule to work around with him, I have excused myself from getting on with my creative writing. I know that taking care of him has had nothing to do with my personal procrastination. And yet, I have been finding it difficult to sit and just continue to work on my story which, truth be told, has me very eager to complete. I have created lovely characters, my writers’ group has kindly bestowed positive feedback and is willing to hear more. I try not to disappoint, after all agreeing to belong to a group confers an unspoken commitment to share our work. I am pleased with where my story is going but I can see elements of procrastination and a lack of formality when I do sit to write. Suddenly the cobwebs beneath a table or chair become priorities. How silly.
I believe we are living in an age (despite all the opposite proof) where women really can achieve a lot more than say 60 years ago. That being said, I also believe we have not made the progress one would have expected by now. We are not showing kindness or solidarity to one another (I am referring specifically to women) and that has been the major contributor to our status quo. I have always wanted to write. My blogs are not exactly what I mean by “writing” but they at least force me to sit for a while and try to get out an essay for the “bots” to peruse and send to the cybersphere. I know my writing will never “go viral” but I am content for now with where I am. After all, I have yet to sit and write what I would consider a “viral-worthy” post, but I am working on it. As long as I consistently blog, improvement has to happen.