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Another Approach to Weight Management


I absolutely hate anything that promises to be “boot camp”.  I got invited to watch a webinar that was going to tell me all about the mysteries of weight loss or resistance to weight loss…what did I come away with? Not anything I didn’t know already although I did get a good explanation about dopamine and leptin! In any event, I am glad I reserved my space…and actually listened to the entire hour…and waited for the (sales) pitch…

While I was listening to the wonderfully sincere webinar “guru’s” pitch and story …I was mentally wondering how much I would be willing to pay (I am already doing WW at about $23/month). I watch my pennies, $23/month works to $276 with no added expense (unless I want to) for special food, equipment etc. What I want to do is live the rest of my days within a good weight for me…which I once was and was able to maintain for 25 years. I get annoyed that I allowed the weight back on…when the final price came at a price of more than $5000 for a private coach and the group price a bargain at $497 I felt like someone slapped me!

Wow, I am thankful, so thankful today. I know what to do, I need to do it and pay for the rest of this year until I reach my goal and then apply discipline, planning, prepping and NEVER EVER skipping breakfast but also not being silly enough to spend money like this. I am looking forward to getting a gorgeous headboard for my bedroom, many many high quality wooden bookcases and beautiful, colorful clothes to go with my lively personality. My hundreds of dollars can be spent in so many other ways. I hardly will have time to feel deprived, have cravings, etc.

I came away with the same answers I have always had, calories in and calories out, movement, a positive attitude and a lot of common sense. Although I can understand the wisdom of this particular program, I can also see how most people will still not be able to conquer it. Meanwhile, someone else is going on vacation, having a beautiful life on our hard-earned dollars.

What a shame…

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Pictures, memories


I have long been a fan of Shonda Rhimes’ fantastic shows. I don’t think I was ever really
curious to know what she looked like but I had the idea that she was fat. I can say that
because I am fat and I know that we now prefer to be called fat, rather than the many
adjectives that try to be politically correct or nice, you know the ones I mean, pleasantly
plump, overweight, a little on the heavy side, curvy. Well, you get my drift. If you’ve
been there you will most likely be inclined to agree with me that fat is fat regardless
of the degree.

Anyway, Shonda Rhimes wrote a blog recently, not sure how I came across it, but she remarked
that after a very big weight loss, she suddenly became visible to people who previously had
ignored her: men, women, it didn’t matter, everyone wanted to celebrate and comment and
congratulate her on the weight loss.

As I have shared in past blogs, I was fat all my childhood and until I was 19. At 19, I heard
a horrible comment made about me which had the effect of instantly reversing my heretofore
unsuccessful attempts to lose weight and keep it off. The remark was made without any thought
about the fact that someone was referring to a real person (me) with the feelings and insecurities
that come with just being alive at 19! If I had the person in front of me right now I would probably
thank her. In just a few months, I lost 35 pounds which I managed to keep off for the next 35 years
or so. And let me just say that although the weight came off because I severely limited by
calories during the 4 months, I learned all about nutrition and kept the weight off because I
was careful and disciplined about what I ate.

A few years ago, I don’t really know what happened but I became very lax about the whole eating thing.
My husband, who loves food as much as I do, became our household’s chef and as a result of his
wonderful, tasty cooking, I began to put on weight. It has taken about 6 years but I have achieved
the horrible success of going from a size M to XXL or even 2X depending on the brand. I am not happy about this “success” but I realized today (after re-reading Ms. Rhimes’ blog) that I have been
expecting someone to comment on my weight gain…forgetting that what people might say to a 19
year old, they would be more careful to say to a +60 year old. I think it was Ms Rhimes who said
that her weight is no one else’s business but her own and I guess it struck me today that that is
exactly true for me as well.

No one in my life makes any comments about my weight. I have not stopped myself from enjoying
life as always; I participate in activities, I am part of my community, I get dressed up, etc.
but I do admit that when I am winded after a couple of flights of stairs, or that when I see
pictures of myself in my current “condition” I am not happy and I often don’t accept that this
body, this shell that holds the same soul at 120 or 180 has never let me down in ways that matter.
Today, I am aware as never before that if I really really want to lose the weight, I am on my
own in this journey, no one can help me and no one can stop me. I have never felt so frightened
and liberated at the same time.

For today, I will accept that I did not get here overnight. I will admit that no matter how
much fat acceptance there is in the world, I would still like to recuperate the me I was 20
years ago. No matter how many manufacturers begin to pay attention to the reality of lost
revenue for their firms for not catering to this (sadly) ever-increasing market, I would
still like to be thinner. For today, this is where I am.

Proper nutrition and hydration



I am traveling for a few weeks and it has taken me a full day to feel like myself.
It is amazing how the body really does react to proper eating and drinking and its
opposite. On the airplane, I tried to keep myself hydrated but I did have a glass
of red wine which I hadn’t had in a few months…the next day, I woke up and my
left thumb felt uncomfortable. Indeed it was a bit swollen and I knew that proper
eating with lots of good, clean water would soon remedy that situation.

I am very averse to taking medication of any kind but I admit that allergy pills
come in handy when I am in an environment that has lots of toxins as I am right now
in one of the largest and busiest and dirtiest cities in the world. I have lots
of energy which is a good thing because I have a lot to do which includes having
lots of fun with my children!