We all know that the year is flying, time to do something with whatever time is left of it.
I have been very diligent this past month, I would say, about writing either in this blog or
in my computer software so I feel that at least I am keeping up with that commitment. It
is pretty fulfilling to go to sleep at night and see that there really has been some kind of
progress during the day.
I woke up at 2:30 a.m. – the time that my fervent Catholic friends say is the time that demons
are strongest. Although I am not a religious person in the sense of church going etc.
my Catholic upbringing does have a hold on me. It is not a negative hold – the way I feel it –
what it does is center me sometimes because the rituals I learned so long ago provide a
kind of guide. When I wake up in the wee hours, if I am aware enough, I will say a prayer
and then go back to sleep.
I do have some friends who do go to church every Sunday as required and pray the rosary often
and know the different “seasons” of the calendar. I admire them for that but sometimes deep
inside me I find that I can be judgmental because their daily actions are often in opposition
from the very things they are supposed to be practicing: gossip, lying – the common themes
of living each day.
My days are short. These days I find my attention focused on trying to make my waking hours
productive. I think I succeed most days, although productivity at this stage of my life is nothing
like the productivity of the days when I was working in an office or the many years I spent
raising my beautiful children. Like my mom used to say it is important to enjoy each stage
because each stage has its enchantments and each stage ends much too quickly.
Let’s all have a good and productive day, whatever that means for each of us. For today I
hope to contribute and not go to sleep tonight and find that through laziness, etc. I have
not lived a good day.